Pathetic .

I'm tired of feeling crazy.
Like I can't control myself whenever I see you.
Like when you look at me,
I drop, weak to the knees.
Like my heart won't shut up.
Like my mind won't let me focus on anyone else,
but you.
It's like I don't even care,
how you treat me.
If you like me, love me, hate me, notice me,
or even care about me at all.
I've already realized that I've fallen,
I just know how to get back up.
It's almost like I don't mind if you're tearing me a part,
as long as its YOU hurting me,
I don't mind.
As long as its YOU stomping on my heart,
not anyone else.
And as long as its YOU pretending that you know how I feel,
when you don't understand my true feelings for you at all.
I'd rather have a broken heart from YOU,
then be happy with someone else.
I'd rather YOU be leaving me with empty promises,
then someone else fulfilling them.
I'd rather YOU treat me like dirt,
than for someone else to treat me like I'm the best thing that's ever happened to them.
I'd rather YOU lie to me,
then for someone else to tell the truth.
And I'd rather YOU loved me,
than anyone else in the world . . .
My feelings for you are pathetic.
But you know what?
So is the way you treat me.
And for some reason,
I still love you.